Love more, fear less.
Love is. “I want to give as I have plenty, I want to love like I am not afraid”. This is the sentence by Chris Tomlin that caught my attention these last few days, I cannot remember where I saw it, but I am certain that if I read it, anywhere it might have been, it was for a reason. This last month has been a challenging one, as it is supposed to be, since it is a transitional month and period of the year. It is the transition from Summer to Fall, from hot to cold, from light to dark. These days, which say farewell to Summer and greet Fall hello, are the days during which, in the Waldorf tradition, we celebrate Michael and the legend of the slaying of the dragon. It is quite a strong image, and it is very symbolic. Michael represents the light, the good, the positive, the courage, and love while the dragon is the symbol of the darkness, the bad, the fear. The sword is the tool through which Michael, slaying the dragon, wins over him and the good, the light, and love win over the bad, the dark, and fear.
Love your powerful self.
We all have very busy lives and it is often hard to sit down for sometime, breathe out and shut down our rampant thoughts. But if we did or I shall say, when we do, we realize right away the benefits of it. How we feel restored, energized and more aligned with our real source of life, the Universe. Silence, peace, healthy solitude, and a nice cup of tea sipped while staring into nothingness often is what you need to re-gear, refocus and find yourself anew out of all the hustle and bustle of every day life. The thing that never fails to rejuvenate me and make resurface the Me that I love most is cooking, while sipping a nice glass of red wine and listening to some good background music. In these last days I’ve come home often weary with thoughts and in need of solutions to situations that no longer fit me, or belong to me, or even serve my purpose any longer. It is amazing how you can tell when a chapter is ending and a new one is starting, and at the same time realize how powerful we truly are to determine the direction we want to take our life. We just must learn to disregard fear. To shut the whispering voice in our ears telling us, we cannot do it, or we should not do it. Why? Because it is too late or too early or you don’t have time or it is not for you. All ideas and voices coming from outside sources trying to direct your existence in directions that ultimately will not serve you nor your needs. All of these help to create doubts and insecurity, which will result into fear.
Love is courage. Overcome your fear.
Fear is not only negative though, don’t get me wrong. Some degree of fear, in a form of caution, it is necessary for a person to conduct a prudent life. The problem starts when we let fear guide our life. We should establish and internal dialogue between ourselves and fear, which using Elizabeth Gilberts words, as she writes in her last book “Big Magic”, should sound something like this: Dear Fear “I recognize and respect that you are part of this family, and so I will never exclude you from our activities, but still-your suggestions will never be followed. You’re allowed to have a seat, and you are allowed to have a voice, but you are not allowed to have a vote. You’re not allowed to touch the road maps; you are not allowed to suggest detours; you are not allowed to fiddle with the temperature. Dude, you are not even allowed to touch the radio. But above all else, my dear old familiar friend you are absolutely forbidden to drive”.
Love your intuition.
This is how we shall react to fear, acknowledge its existence but never allow it to direct our life. In the back of my mind I always have Paulo Coelho’s words: “Fear is the worse enemy of your soul”, meaning that fear will always direct you away from your dreams, away from the fulfillment of your greatest self. This is why it is so important to understand our purpose and then start to transform fear into faith while we always keep in mind that the universe has our back, using Gabby Bernstein’s words, of her last book: “The Universe has your back”. “The fear comes from a belief that we are not good enough” How many of us grew up thinking and feeling that something was missing, that we were not up to snuff for those around us? Probably many, too many. Well, today’s news is that the story we chose to listen to was wrong, definitely wrong. Why? Because we are good enough and perfect just the way we are. Fear is the opposite of love, fear gives us the idea that power comes from outside sources, and we get used to listen to these sources, outside of ourselves, when we look for advice and direction. While this is a good thing, to listen to the advice of loved ones, we shall always remember that ultimately we know best. Because what we are deciding is our path, our life and we, only we, will respond for it and will take the consequences in the end, for the bad or for the good. We will, not anyone else.
When I was a teenager I was madly in love with my first boyfriend, he was all I cared about, I remember my grandmother’s words one afternoon as we were sitting together in the garden. She told me that while it was wonderful that I found a person that I loved so much, I shall not fall, so entirely and completely, into someone else that was not me, but I shall always leave a small part of my existence that was mine only, in which I would not allow anyone in. That part, I understand today, is the captain’s cabin, it’s where decisions are made. It is never too late to understand, take the wheel back and start sailing or driving in the direction you recognize as the best one for yourself.
Love and embrace your new self.
My soul, these days, feels pretty much like my garden looks, they both are in a state of obvious transformation. In the garden every little plant quietly withers and decays, while at this time of the year the seeding activity reaches its highest. As I gather seeds in separate little paper bags, I admire their unique shape. Each seed in my hand awakens faith, hope and anticipation for what will develop and come to maturity in the coming year.
Now I am going to pick up all my thoughts and take them to the kitchen, pick up my apron, my creativity and transform my doubts into certainty, the abstract into concrete: I’ll make a delicious treat to bring some sweetness into this windy October morning. Since outside in the garden the kiwis are hanging ready and ripe from the vines, this is the perfect time for pear and kiwi custard.
Pere e kiwi con crema pasticcera (Pear and kiwi custard)
As I sit and write I can picture the kiwi vines over the veranda. How in May they produce the most delicate white blossoms and how slowly during the hot summer days the flowers turn into juicy drop shaped brown fruit. They hang there the whole summer long and while they provide us with a soothing shade they absorb the sun rays to become succulent sweet treats by the middle of Autumn. Kiwi vines can be incredibly prolific. Every year we store up crates and crates of them up in the attic. The best thing is, the kiwis will keep ripening and be ready to eat throughout the winter months.
Kiwis and pears marry deliciously, the sweetness of the pear is a perfect complement to the fresh tangy taste of the kiwi. Both of these flavors are exalted over a silk smooth layer of fresh custard cream.
Make the custard:
2 cups lukewarm whole milk
2 egg yolks
2 Tbsp powdered sugar
1 1/2 Tbsp flour
1 lemon peel, grated
1 tsp vanilla pure extract (optional), or
1 tsp ground cinnamon (optional)
Over very low heat , using a whisk, mix together milk, sugar, and flour to have a smooth and even batter. Separately, beat the egg yolks and slowly incorporate to the batter always maintaining a low heat. Keep stirring. Add lemon peel. Stir until the batter has a thick and smooth consistency. Remove from heat.
While the custard cools, cut up the kiwis and the pears in slices. Place one person portions of custard in small bowls and place the fruit on top. Serve it fresh.